baby #2: 8 weeks pregnant

How far along? 8 weeks and 1 day, as of today!

How big is baby? The baby is about 1.7cm long {we saw it on ultrasound this morning!} and is the size of a raspberry or a kidney bean. We're growing! So in love. :)

{Image via BabyCenter}
How I’m feeling? I'm good! I'm relieved to have seen and even heard a heartbeat this week. Just want this little jellybean to keep on growing and developing well, one day at a time. Current heart rate was 170bpm!

How I’m changing? I'm bloated up the wazoo & trying really hard to keep calm and carry on.

Symptoms? BOOBS. Sore, sore boobs. Every now & again I get flash pains in my left boob, really bizarre. Cramping. Just odd flashes of queasiness, but nothing drastic. As long as I keep snacks up, it's not too bad.

Cravings? Juice. Orange mainly, or apple/blackcurrant. I also really want chicken nuggets, go figure.

Food Aversions? Eggs, no. No eggs. EVER. Blergh. I'm more in the head space of nothing ever sounding good.

Highlights this week? Seeing the baby again & hearing its heartbeat. Ticking some more days off the calendar!

The Belly? Still frumpy, and still bloated! How about a picture of the baby instead? I look at this shot and see a little wee crab, with pincers on each end {which I hope is a head to the left, leg buds to the right}... meet our little Nipper!

Bulk Billing IVF - Yes Please!

There has been a bit of a media frenzy here in Australia over the last few days, with the announcement of the opening of Sydney's first bulk-billed IVF centre. From the reading I've done, the majority of procedures will be covered by Medicare {the currently-free Australian healthcare system} and there will be some out of pocket costs, for items that aren't listed on their books. The news reports are claiming costs of $500 for a procedure.

Drugs from my IVF cycle #1

This news is really exciting to me, as I'm sure it is to many couples struggling to conceive. The double whammy of needing IVF is not only the emotional aspect of it all - it's the financial side of things. Paying excessive amounts of money to achieve something that your body just isn't able to do on its own; it hurts.

We've been lucky with our experience - we researched a lot of clinics, and ended up using one that is currently one of the most reasonably priced in Sydney. There are some consequences with saving money there; we are part of a clinic, so don't see the same doctor for procedures - it's whoever happens to be working as our dates are scheduled. I also had to have my egg retrieval procedure done under local anaesthetic and twilight sedation, as opposed to being knocked out in a day surgery. {Yargh!} But to us, it was the only way we could jump into IVF after not being able to conceive on our own.

But there are a LOT of people who aren't local to our clinic, and who only have expensive private clinics available to them. This impacts on whether they're able to go down the assisted conception route, or how many cycles they can go through if they are unsuccessful in becoming pregnant. Hearing about this bulk-billed, low cost clinic, sounds like a dream come true to a lot of people.

That said, I've read a lot of negative comments about it too. Not surprisingly, a lot of the criticism is being offered by Australians who have never struggled to fall pregnant, never been told they couldn't have a baby, never needed to even THINK about spending money on this sort of a procedure. They say: Why should tax payers foot the bill for a non life-threatening procedure? It's only babies, after all. Not that important. Maybe they should 'just adopt' or get a pet instead?

My blood boils reading this sort of nonsense. It actually boils. The sense of entitlement some of those comments project ... the 'well, if you can't have kids, it must be for a reason' ideology - it blows my mind. For so many people, infertility is a disease. It may not be life threatening, but we live every day with emotional and with physiological scars from it. Why should couples that are struggling to conceive simply give up their dream of having a family, because other people don't think they're 'in need enough' to qualify? And how can anyone chime in on this discussion who hasn't been through these circumstances themselves? If you've never had to even THINK about potentially needing IVF to conceive, you don't deserve to come in and shoot down the idea of making it affordable for hundreds or thousands of potential parents - parents who wouldn't get a chance any other way.

This whole thing makes me so thankful. Thankful that I live in Australia, where we do have certain parts of things covered by Medicare, even if private health insurance isn't interested in covering infertility treatments. Thankful that we conceived Georgia after two rounds of IVF, not twenty. Thankful that we live locally to an affordable clinic. Thankful for this little jellybean in my tummy, and that we even get to be parents at all.

I just wish that everyone had the same opportunities that we do - and that people who have no stake in such a sensitive topic, could stay the hell away from it.

7 weeks + 5 days

Today I met with my NEW obstetrician for the first time. We decided to go with a new doctor AND a new hospital with this baby, because I still have issues with Georgia's special care stay at the previous hospital, and I'd like to have a completely fresh start with Baby #2's birth and care. This OB is one that was recommended to me by friends & is raved about in the local mum community, and is conveniently located 10 minutes down the road, which is awesome. {Same with the hospital - 10 mins vs 30 mins!}

I left hubby with Georgia, since I didn't want to risk the wrath of a cranky baby in a waiting room - right through her nap time. Happy to say that the whole thing went perfectly. The doctor was amazing, made you feel right at ease. He listened to my previous birth experience, asked lots of questions about IVF and spent at least 45 minutes in the appointment with me. Was really nice to not feel rushed at all. His midwife was also in for the appointment and she seemed very sweet too.

We headed over for a look at the baby - just a tummy ultrasound today, so not an internal for a change. First up, I heard the heart beat - such a sweet little sound. 159bpm, and all good, the most beautiful thing to hear. Baby has grown since last week & I'm measuring 7w4-7w5d depending on the scans he took. I'll probably have an internal at Thursday's ultrasound just to confirm, but looks like a March 4th due date. :)


So in love with this little jellybean!

baby #2: 7 weeks pregnant

How far along? Since the dating scan pushed me back two days, Wednesdays are now my 'new week' day. 7 weeks!

How big is baby? The baby is the size of a blueberry. A very, very cute blueberry. :)

{Image via BabyCenter}
How I’m feeling? I feel good, knowing I'm not crazy and that there's a tiny baby in there! Relieved that we saw a heartbeat, so so excited to tackle the coming weeks & expand our little family.

How I’m changing? I feel quite calm now, though I'm sure that this will change soon! Body wise, my boobs feel a little bigger {particularly my left one.. weird} & I'm feeling pretty jiggly.

Symptoms? Still with the bloating & cramping - sometimes it makes me stop and think about it, but mostly it's twinges. My boobs feel quite tender now, my left one really pains me every now & again, which is uncomfortable. Had a big head spinning/dizzy moment a few nights ago that left me lying down.

Cravings? I had my calamari fix last week. Not really sure what I'm feeling like at the moment... but I seem to be drinking an awful lot of juice.

Food Aversions? Nothing major, but the idea of reheating a sausage dish for Georgia's dinner the other day was enough to make me feel pretty sick.

Highlights this week? Seeing that heartbeat flicker, and a teeny tiny baby on the screen. I've also confirmed an OB visit for next week, so that should be interesting.

The Belly? Large and in charge - but all belly, no baby yet!

Flicker

Oh, sweet, sweet relief. Meet Baby #2:

There is nothing sweeter than seeing that flicker on the screen, a tiny, tiny heart beating already. Baby measured at 6w5d, so just a couple days off my 'rough' IVF date. The heart rate was measured at 134bpm and my little jellybean baby is just 7mm long, such a wee little thing. Yet it owns my heart already. :)
One milestone down, a few handfuls more to go. But for now.... there's a baby in my belly! Happiest mama ever.

6 weeks + 4 days

Just a few days to go before the ultrasound. In the meantime, I've been:

  • Peeing on sticks daily. Don't worry, they're just el cheapos... and they're still dark!
  • Feeling pretty good, with the odd bits of nausea that are mostly fleeting.
  • Having some new cravings: apple & blackcurrant juice, and carbs. All carbs. Going off hot teas, which is weird.
  • Going to bed super early, usually straight after Georgia goes down for the night. Thankfully, she's been sleeping pretty well too. Phew!
  • Worrying, as per usual. The current thing I have on my mind? What if Monday's scan is massively different compared to Georgia's 7 week scan? It's so daunting. Fingers & toes crossed that all is okay.
How are YOU going?

baby #2: 6 weeks pregnant

How far along? My 'new weeks' start on Mondays - so I'm 6 weeks pregnant.

How big is baby? The baby is tiny, as small as a pea, a lentil or a grain of rice this week. Growing slowly!

{Image via BabyCenter}
How I’m feeling? I'm feeling really nervous. The early weeks of pregnancy are no joke, especially since I feel like I've been pregnant forever - I've known about this baby since I was 3+4 weeks along! I just want to fast forward to an ultrasound confirming that there really is a healthy little baby in my belly.

How I’m changing? I AM SO BLOATED. It's mostly progesterone from the twice-daily pessaries, but I feel like my stomach has already puffed out a great deal. It's a little embarrassing breaking out the stretchy pants before being anywhere near ready to come out to the world! Seriously... my belly looks 20 weeks pregnant already.

What I miss? Absolutely nothing. I am so, so happy. Hoping with everything I have that it continues to go well.

Symptoms? Bloating, cramping, peeing every five minutes. Tender nips, boobs fine. Can sleep at the drop of a hat & am irrationally moody - I go from hot to cold in seconds. My skin has also completely broken out.

Cravings? All I want is crunchy calamari. Seriously - this coming from someone who doesn't eat seafood!

Food Aversions? The smell of hubby cooking scrambled eggs earlier this week was enough to make me feel sick.

Highlights this week? It's another week down! That means there is only 1 more week until that 7 week ultrasound... where we can hopefully get some good news & I can breathe a tiny bit easier. Fingers & toes crossed!

The Belly? No pictures for a while yet, but I am giving it a good cuddle every night before bed. :)

5 weeks + 6 days

This pregnancy is so eerily similar to Georgia's! In 2012, I got a 3+ weeks reading on the Clearblue Digital pregnancy test at 5+6 weeks. Guess what today is? These pee sticks drive me mad & keep me sane at the same time.

I'm feeling pretty good, mostly tired though. Georgia's been back to better sleeping and that makes a huge difference! We're still in limbo for another week, but I'm counting down the days until the ultrasound.
I've decided I need a list of things to do to make this week go by faster. Any suggestions for me?
The ultrasound is booked for 8.30am on the Monday, so at least I don't have to worry that whole day away. :)

5 weeks + 3 days

Today, I'm pregnant. That's pretty much all I can say with any certainty; I don't know how it's all going, I don't know what's happening in there... but the pee sticks are still staring at me with double lines & I'm holding on to that.

My 7 week ultrasound has been booked in a few weeks time, so I'm really just twiddling my thumbs and counting down the days until that appointment. We're in that ridiculous early phase of pregnancy that I remember so well from last time - where it feels like you've known about it forever, but it's only been a few short weeks. 
This time around, I'm feeling a lot queasier than I remember with Georgia. Not actually sick, just a motion-sickness type sensation. My boobs themselves aren't sore, but the nips feel really sensitive. I'm bloated up the wazoo, but that's likely a result of the progesterone pessaries. I've also broken out in huge, horrible blind pimples that are SO sore... I have skin like a teenager right now.
I'm not going to go back for follow up hcg levels, because I know that I'll just obsess over whatever that number would be. Instead, I'm stopping at what I've already had done (14/17dpo) like I did with Georgia, and hoping for the best. Every day that I wake up with nausea, or without my period appearing, or with pregnancy tests still showing positive, I thank my lucky stars. One day at a time! I just wish those days would hurry up a wee bit..

Fifteen Months

Georgia's had a pretty busy month! She's come with me to plenty of IVF appointments and has been such a good girl. Her daddy came home from a business trip, and she's so, so happy that he's home. I love seeing them together. :)

It is SO hard to get a toddler to stay still, man.
This month Georgia has:
  • Moved into size 1 clothes! Some are still a little big, but she's shot up in length - so we're currently wearing perfect length but baggy waisted pants. Can't believe my baby is in 12-18 month clothes!
  • Cracked the 10kg mark. :) She was 10kg on the nose at her last doctor's appointment.
  • Continued crawling everywhere. She's a pocket rocket, this little girl.
  • Continued cruising furniture and pushing her walker around. She's also figured out how to slide kitchen chairs across the floor.
  • Remained as stubborn as always. If you try to prop her up into a standing position, or try to walk with her/holding her hands up, she crumples her legs & refuses. She'll do this in her own time, it seems.
  • Begun spending more time playing independently, particularly with her Fisher Price Learning House. She'll sit there and open/close the door, post letters, press the doorbell & chatters to herself.
  • Tolerated me putting hoodie jumpers on her for the cold weather, but is still constantly ripping off hats, beanies, socks and shoes.
  • Been sick as a dog. Poor Georgia has had a cold, which turned into an ear infection. She's been downright miserable for the last few weeks & spent the majority of time snuggled up on the sofa with me.
  • A few words that she uses quite regularly now: mum, dad, cat, water. She listens and understands some other things ('have a drink of water, Georgia') but still is mostly babbling in her own little language.
You can see all of Georgia's monthly pictures by clicking here.





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