6 weeks + 1 day

djfshjgjskhgkj !!!! (In English: there is still a baby in there!)
Still teency, still with a tiny flickering heartbeat, still hanging around, still blowing me away.
I visited my OB on Friday, when I was 5w6d. We had a good talk about the bleeding, the anxiety that comes with it, and my fear about something going wrong - all justifiable, but we just have to take one moment, one day, one week at a time. He wanted to take a look at everything himself, and once again, he could find no reason for the blood - which he says is positive.

It was an internal ultrasound once again, and this time, we saw the sac and the baby almost immediately, even though it was small. He didn't even bother measuring it, because we'd seen it the day before & he said there was no real point, since we could leave it a week and hopefully have a lot more to see. Seeing the heartbeat was enough to help me breathe a sigh of relief.

Still beating.

He's going to scan me weekly, because he thinks that will help us to manage both a) my anxiety over something going wrong, and b) keeping an eye on growth, particularly if I do have any more bleeding. That's about all we can do at this point... and hope with everything we've got.

This is the first time we've seen a beating heart since our first miscarriage. We lost him, yes, but we had several beautiful scans, and I cherish those moments. The other losses were earlier, and we didn't even get to this point. While it's still early days, and while I'm still petrified... I'm so happy. I just really hope this is our little fighter, who can come home and join our family. We are so ready for them.


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11 comments:

Tiggy B said...

Yay!!! I am glad they will scan you weekly too! Keep growing Olaf!!

Viv said...

Yes!!! Sounds great! Fingers crossed Olaf keeps growing and you won't have any more scares! It's fantastic they'll be doing weekly scans, so you won't have to wonder and not know...

Jesa said...

:) :) I think having weekly scans will really help for your anxiety!

Nellie said...

Wonderful news, thanks for the update! Weekly scans are a great reassurance for you guys, so happy xxx

Mrs. Higrens said...

I'm glad your OB gets it. Hang in there Olaf & Aly.

JB said...

wonderful news. Stay strong, momma. You are an AMAZING woman to go through what you've been through and still try and find the positive. Grow little Olaf, Grow!

doahleigh said...

What a blessing to have a weekly scan! Anyone with your heartbreaking history deserves that much regular reassurance. So happy things are still going well.

Feisty Harriet said...

I am pom-pom cheering for you and Olaf right now!

xox

Jess said...

Yay! I'm really glad your OB is so understanding and you'll be getting weekly scans. Go baby go!

Kato Potato said...

Come on Olaf!! I hope the weekly scans really do help with the anxiety. So nice you can do that!

Adi said...

Sounds like you have a great OB. Grow Olaf grow!!





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