Negative so far, even though I know I was silly for testing so early.

The first days after the transfer, I felt absolutely nothing. I was convinced that it hadn't worked, that maybe the embryo had stopped developing not long after transferring & that it was a hopeless cause.
Then yesterday (8dpo) I got a really achy back. Like a burning ache, quite low down. It continued on and off all day, and it was still there this morning when I woke. I also had a really heavy feeling, and weird looking boobs. (I can't describe this well - but they just seemed really... stretched out/veiny.)
Of course, that got my hopes up that something was happening... and then deflated again after I saw the blindingly negative stick this morning.
It's a big old suckfest, this TWW. 
I just really, really, really, really, REALLY would love a miracle right now. 
Maybe this is the bargaining phase of grief from all of the crap that's happened to us since last year, and residually from trying for Georgia. I've already been back and forth throughout the other stages - anger, depression, acceptance, isolation... so yeah. Bargain. I will do just about ANYTHING for this to work!  ;) 

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Liz said...

I hope the tests turn positive soon! I can't imagine all the emotions you've been feeling.

Unknown said...

Praying for you and your hopefully sticky little bean!

Mrs. Agony said...

You're still really early, lady. My first pregnancy I got my BFP on 6dp5dt, which is really when the tests tell you should be the first conceivable time to get a BFP (pardon the pun). This cycle I got mine at 5dp5dt but my levels were decently high all along. The women who get their BFPs 4dp5dt (so, equivalent of 6dp3dt) have twins on board.

Wishing you luck!

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