IVF #4 - a total crapshoot

It's official, this cycle has been another bust.

Last Thursday: E2 was 1015 and P4 was 4.1. (Why did they not tell me?)
Yesterday: E2 was 7900 and P4 was 6.3.

If you can remember back to our last failed fresh cycle and freeze all, the cut off for having a transfer is a progesterone level of less than 5. We're even higher this cycle than last time, despite being assured by our FS that we would likely be 'just fine' this time around. Apparently not.

After finding out that we have to freeze all the embryos retrieved, we went about ensuring that this time around they would grow them all out to day 5, instead of freezing at day 1 like happened last time. We had brought this worry up with our specialist at our appointment a few weeks ago, and were under the impression that yes, it was something we could bring up with the scientists, should the need arise. Imagine our surprise yesterday when we were bluntly informed that no, we would only be allowed to freeze at day 1, as this is clinic policy. No way around it, no changing her, or the clinic's mind. She has completely gone back on her word. Disappointed and frustrated is an understatement. I am LIVID.

We are so upset about this cycle that we talked about cancelling completely before retrieval - just taking the trigger, getting the majority of our money back, and just letting these eggs go. It would save us the heartache of potentially months of agony fighting our current clinic to get to a frozen transfer, and to grow out these embryos - what we were trying to avoid.

We ended up speaking to our new clinic (who we will be switching to for future cycles) and they've encouraged us not to waste these eggs. They've offered us the option of having whatever we retrieve/fertilise/end up having frozen, transferred over to their clinic, so we never have to make use of our current clinic again.

So, we're going with that option. Trigger tonight, retrieve our eggs, and wait to see what happens with fertilisation and freezing. We'll then sign the forms to give permission to send our embryos to our new clinic, take our mandatory rest cycle off, and go from there.

What a shambles, eh?

For now, I'm focusing on one day at a time... devastated to be denied a fresh transfer once again, but at least looking forward to getting these eggs out of me, because I am uncomfortable and ready to be done with IVF #4. I can't believe how these things just keep going from bad to worse, but there has to be a reason for all this, surely.

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Mrs Green Grass said...

I'm am so glad you have another clinic because the one you have is ridiculous. So sorry.

Liz said...

This whole situation really sucks and I'm so sorry. I hope you get some great eggs from this cycle. I don't understand the unwillingness to grow the embryos to day 5. I thought that was pretty standard process.

Lollipop Goldstein said...

I am so sorry you're going through that, but glad that you'll be moving to the new clinic. How incredibly upsetting and frustrating.

Cassie Dash said...

Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry you're going through this! Believing there was a reason for all of my own disappointment and pain when we were TTC #2 was sometimes the only thing I had to hold onto. I hope your new clinic can give you more hope and support. xo

JustHeather said...

Sorry for the actions of your current clinic. May this retrieval go smoothly and you can continue successfully at your new clinic!!

Non Sequitur Chica said...

WTF?!?!? I'm so sorry that your current clinic is unwilling to work with you. I simply don't understand the reasoning behind ONLY freezing on day 1. I hope that the retrieval goes well and that everything goes smoothly with the new clinic.

Jess said...

OH I am so frustrated on your behalf. I can't believe the clinic told you they would work with you and is now going back on it. I wish you could switch clinics mid-cycle, but barring that, your planned approach sounds like the best solution given the situation. I'm sorry you're having to go through this! But I still have hope that one of the eggs retrieved during this cycle will be the beginning of a take-home baby for you.

Rebecca said...

Frustrating to be sure and I'm livid just thinking about your situation!

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